ummmmm

Twilight sucked


seriously... wtf people!!



bbhp
(bring back harry potter)
:(


**end nerd rant**



I'm not in a good mood today. People kind of piss me off today.

i need sleep

It's been a while since i've blogged. i suppose it is time to do so.

It's been an interesting week. To say the least. Last Friday an important person in my life shared with me a huge event going on in theirs. One that involved a big decision. I was there for this person unconditionally and I am glad they felt they could trust me enough to use me as a support system. It definitely made me think about my life, where i am at and what i would do in that situation.
just speculating about it makes me uncomfortable even know.
i'm not sure how she did it.


There are a lot of other things that have happened this past week.. hell this past DAY but I am exhausted and honestly... i feel as if they are not even worth mentioning.


just a little note for today i guess.

<3

I hope California does the right thing this time around.


no on 8.
yes on equality.

I do not know where I have been for the past 20 mintues.. but it hasn't been in this reality.


god, i love how music can just take you away when you're least expecting it.


how the perfect mix of songs on a playlist set to random can just take over your every thought and emotion. take you to a place where you think of nothing, where you feel nothing, where you just exist.

where you just breathe the song around you.

ha. i swear i am not on drugs.


this is why i kill myself doing what i do.


Starlight-Muse
On Call- Kings of Leon
Viva La Vida - Coldplay
Brother- Annuals
First Breath After a Coma - Explosions in the Sky

try your luck. see what it will do for you

my skin is not my friend right now



ughh


that is all

Hello,

my name is Christina Marie Johnson and i just wanted to say that it feels good to be myself again.

i am finally getting feeling back. i've been damn near numb for a little over a year now.


and it FEELS good.

for those of you who have noticed a change, i'm coming back. rejoice.
for those of you who haven't... well.. then you have nothing to loose right?

right.

hello self esteem. it's nice to see you again.


it's time for things to change around here.


and when i say i am coming back
i mean i am coming B-A-C-K

in every sense of the word.


think about it


get on board or get out of my way.
treat me with respect and love or don't treat me at all.

game on.

- c

NOTE TO SELF

someone always has it worse than you
people are always going to come after you in one way or another. they only have power over you if you give it to them
the innocence of youth isn't too far away.
happiness isn't a lost cause, it isn't ignorant.
it's deserved.
keep working until you turn it around.
that's the only option.
influence others with a positive attitude.
all you can do is your best. even if you mess up. all you can do is your best.
if he doesn't want you after that you can't beat yourself up over it.
there is nothing wrong with taking a page out of your own history book and be a little more happy-go-lucky.
like when you were young.
like when you were 18.
like when you were 22.
let things go. negativity is not worth hanging onto.
KEEP WORKING UNTIL YOU TURN IT AROUND.
ALL YOU CAN DO IS YOUR BEST.

remember that.

sincerely,
Christina