Saturday, February 23, 2008

ok, i believe you

but my tommy gun don't.
i am heaven sent,
don't you dare forget.
i am all you've ever wanted,
what all the other boys all promised.
sorry i told. i just needed you to know.
i think in decimals and dollars.
i am the cause to all your problems,
shelter from cold. we are never alone.
coordinate brain and mouth.
then ask me whats it like to have
myself so figured out.
i wish i knew..

i hope this song starts a craze.
the kind of song that ignites the airwaves.
the kind of song that makes people glad
to be where they are,
with whoever they're there with.
this is war.
every line is about,
who i don't wanna write about anymore.
hope you come down with something
they can't diagnose, don't have the cure for.
holding on to your grudge.
oh its so hard to have someone to love.
and keeping quiet is hard.
cuz you cant keep a secret
if it never was a secret to start.
at least pretend you didn't wanna get caught..

we're concentrating on falling apart.
we were contenders, we're throwing the fight
but i just wanna believe, i just wanna believe,
i just wanna believe, in us.

Oh, we're so c-c-c-c-c-controversial.
we are entirely smooth.
we admit to the truth,
we are the best at what we do.
and these are the words you wish you wrote down.
this is the way you wish your voice sounds,
handsome and smart.
oh my tongue's the only muscle on my body
that works harder than my heart.
and its all from watching tv,
and from speeding up my breathing.
wouldnt stop if i could.
oh it hurts to be this good.
you're holding on to your grudge.
oh it hurts to always have to be honest
with the one that you love.
oh, so let it go..

this is the grace that only we can bestow.
this is the price you pay for loss of control.
this is the break in the bend,
this is the closest of calls.
this is the reason your alone,
this is the rise and the fall.




and this time.. it's not about a boy.

it's time for changes to happen.


this is war







Tuesday, February 12, 2008

they never said it would be easy

but it would be worth it



so... we have a place.. we've had one for a couple of weeks.
I have a job. I work for Parker West Interiors as an Administrative Assistant.
it pays well so that's cool.

Brandon and I are getting along great.


It seems like everything is falling into place. That makes me very nervous. It's not perfect here, there are a lot of things that are stressful but it's right.


it really truly is.
i think i finally found home.



ANYWAY.

Liz is coming to visit us this weekend. SO excited. We're gonna tear up the town! Trouble Tour 2008! haha Brandon's going to be staying the whole weekend too so it'll be a full house here... and we only have one bathroom... ohhhh boyyyy
I'm thinking, party friday night, Santa Monica/Beach saturday, Jeremy's show and more party saturday night, SLEEPING sunday haha

sounds great to me.

the weather here is BEAUTIFUL. Brandon and I went to Long Beach on Saturday and just walked forever. it was PERFECT. seriously. Then we built a fort in his living room. haha yeah. we're 5

well. that's all.
i leave you now with pictures.