I wish I could do better by you,

Cos that's what you deserve.

You sacrifice so much of your life,

In order for this to work.

While I'm off chasing my own dreams,

Sailing around the world,

Please know that I'm yours to keep,

My beautiful girl.

And when you cry a piece of my heart dies,

Knowing that I may have been the cause,

If you were to leave, fulfill someone elses dreams,

I think I might totally be lost.

But you don't ask for no diamond rings,

No delicate string of pearls,

That's why I wrote this song to sing,

My beautiful girl

Do you have an extra $10 and some artistic talent?
Why don't you redecorate a room??


Like this guy

pretty epic if you ask me!

this took forever

1. a picture of you in your room.

2. a picture with someone you don't actually like.
3. a picture of you very drunk.
4. a picture of you on your birthday, or your favorite holiday.
5. the youngest picture you can find of yourself in digital form.
6. a picture of you in one of your favorite outfits.
7. a picture of you making a goofy face at the camera.
8. a picture you miiiiiight have edited to make yourself more attractive.
9. a picture of a night you regret...

10. a picture of you truly being yourself.
11. the most recent picture of you.

12. a picture of you being absolutely ridiculous.
13. a picture of you showing off a new haircut/color.
14. a picture of a time in your life that's over, but you wish it wasn't.
15. a picture of a time in your life that's over, and you couldn't be more thankful that it is...

16. a picture of you when you were anything but happy....
17. a picture of you when you were nothing but happy.....

18. a picture of you when you were a different person than you are now....
19. a picture of you with someone you love....
20. a picture of how you'd like the world to see you....
21. a picture that describes how you'd like to spend everyday...

22. a picture of a time when everything was changing...

23. a picture that makes your heart hurt....
24. a picture that makes your heart smile...
25. a picture of you on one of the best days/nights of your life....
26. a picture from your past....
27. a picture of your present....
28. a picture of your future....

29. a picture you couldnt leave out....

30. a picture of just you...

another note to myself

Life is too short to continue living this way.
this isn't the first time you've been fucked over and it won't be the last.
is it worth loosing everything over?
are THEY worth loosing everything over?


no.



take a break.
use the next 20 days to relax and take some time for yourself.
then take the world by storm

it's the only destiny you've ever known.

you are better than this
you are stronger than this
everyone around you believes that, it's time for you to believe it too.


they just fucked themselves...
...not your problem anymore, not your concern anymore, not your worry anymore


one blow after another the past 3 years....
even worse the past 3 months.

but what doesn't kill you makes you stronger
right?
right.


focus on the positive today and everyday.
learn to love life again.

with, or without him in it.


you can do it.


-Christina

my kingdom for a trundle bed

goddamn, it's a joke that you'll never forget,
there's no evidence of anything like it yet,
we imagined it me and my friends would get by
(pay the check, sneak back and call it a night)
Afraid to make a mistake?
don't you know i do it for a living?
i'm told it takes a toll but it's so unremitting
but as long as you leave me alone,
i promise i'll call and it won't be long.

(and you won't know why)

i know that i could leave everything, you never expressed to me any sort of idea that we'd grown apart. i'll go back and collect my belongings the rest will fit fine in my car. Secrets that nobody knows about, changes that hurt to let go.

It's my black eye swollen shut from tonight,
it looks bad but the pain has been dulled
do you mind if i sleep on your floor tonight?
i'll be gone in the morning
it's me, you'll forget that i'd come.
i could barely breathe
i was sucking air out of my crushed lungs
we were flying so fast down the road and i stretch my limbs on the floor of my house
i'd forgot we'd been here alone.


Trains bround us to the city when we were young we passed the country it was electric green and it spread apart tell me what nobody knows about. A hug and a smile and I'll see you soon, we were just passengers all along making our way to get by

I'll see you still,
we could be on our own.
I wanted the truth as simple as you could give it to me right now.
And still in the end,
it's good to hear your voice on my telephone.
I'll travel across the country and still end up on your front steps
the way that we first met...
I'm sorry I'm so

...and so it goes

I don't have anywords that seem appropriate


except that I love you Bryan Lemasters
and I will miss you for the rest of my days



Rest In Peace. If there is anyone in this world who deserves that, it's you.

Cleaning out the Ipod

bands that are getting the axe:
(i'm running out of room!!)
Coheed and Cambria
Engine Down
Further Seems Forever
H20 (i only had one song anyway and it sucked)
Hot Water Music
Most of my Incubus collection
James Blunt
Jem
Jets To Brazil
The Juliana Theory
Kane Hodder
Keane (except for that one single)
The Juno soundtrack (barrrfffff)
The Living End
Lorene Drive
Eisley
The Movielife
Nightmare Of You
No Motiv
Noise Ratchet
The Number 12 Looks Like you
One Time Angel
The Orangeburg Massacre (PEACE BITCH)
Over My Dead Body
Paul Schneider
The Rocket Summer
Senses Fail
Showbread
Snow Patrol
The Spill Canvas
Still Remains
The Stills
Stretch Armstrong
This Holiday Life
Thrice


I need new music now!